12 WEEKS!!!


Total weight gain: Still sitting at 10 pounds

Maternity clothes?: Silly belly growth! 🙂 Starting to wear some seriously flowing shirts

Stretch marks?: Negative, thank goodness! Tons of tips of how to keep it that way!


Best moment this week?: Seeing how my belly is growing and reading how much my little peanut is developing!!!

Miss Anything?: Advil, have had miserable headaches and tylenol isnt making a dent

Movement?: I feel little one growing definitely, because he/she is stretching mommys belly and making slight jabbing pains while doing it!

Food cravings: Oh this week was all about the bbq chicken salad I usually make for Michael, but the baby was feeling it this week!
Anything making you queasy or sick?: I am definitely feeling better, but this week was a little rough, but hey holidays and good food ahead so hopefully 1st trimester craziness is behind me.
Gender Prediction?: GIRL GIRL GIRL, PRETTY LITTE GIRL!!!!!
Symptoms?: my sense of smell has heightened SO much, its so weird, an still lots of sleep

Belly Button in or out?: In!

Wedding rings on or off?: On 🙂

Happy or Moody most of the time?: Happy!! There is really nothing to be sad or moody about, I do cry a lot at cute little kid commercials though lol, Michael finds it funny!

Looking forward to?: Introducing the baby to Thanksgiving food, and being around my family who I havent seen since the wedding and getting to show sonogram pictures!



Total weight gain: Something popped and we are at a total of 10 lbs (hoping its the belly pop, or some major water weight!)
Maternity clothes?: Still the same stuff as before, but wearing more dresses and sweatpants this week once we woke up with a belly!

Stretch marks?: Nope, saying tons of prayers that it will stay that way

Sleep: Good, but not the best

Best moment this week?: Seeing our little bump! It was so weird to wake up one morning and all of the sudden having the same body but for some reason my tummy was sticking out! haha
Miss Anything?: Nope, loving these times right now
Movement?: I seriously think that this baby is stretching and moving around, at least it feels like it!
Food cravings: Oh gracious, hamburger pickle chips and celery and carrots
Anything making you queasy or sick?: I am getting better with foods and smells, its just a matter of how I sleep at night that affects the sick feeling
Gender Prediction?: Well, I still feel girl and Michael is still saying boy and reminding me that he will tell our little boy that I wanted a girl more!!! HAHA either way I just want a happy healthy little one
Symptoms?: TIRED TIRED TIRED!!! I swear I have never slept so much in my entire life!
Belly Button in or out?: In!
Wedding rings on or off?: On and hopefully they stay that way
Happy or Moody most of the time?: Happy!!
Looking forward to?: GENDER REVEAL!! I am so excited to find out the gender with all our friends and family around!! I cannot wait!
I cannot believe that I am so close to the second trimester, finding out the baby’s sex and how fast things are moving! If anyone had told me a year ago that this is where I would be, I dont know if I would have believed them, ESPECIALLY THE BABY! I am so blessed and with every once of morning sickness I am so grateful for the wonderful gift God is allowing me to carry! This is the most wonderful time I could have ever imagined.

10 Weeks

This week has just been crazy! Michael is finally home for good and diving into work, we are attempting to finally get settled into Tallahassee and begin unpacking, and all the while it feels like everything is happening so crazy fast! But I am grateful for the healthy heartbeat we heard on Thursday, and hearing our doctor in Tallahassee say that for everything my body has been through, it seems to be really adapting well and the baby is extremely healthy and has a great steady heartbeat and is GROWING!!! We are so grateful for this amazing little miracle getting bigger and bigger! 
How far along? 10 weeks
Total weight gain: 5 pounds, but I have a feeling a TON of it is all the junk I have been eating just to get food in my belly… 
Maternity clothes? Michael got me some jeans which are super comfy! 
Stretch marks? Not yet!!!
Sleep: with some prescription meds, much better sleep, although I am having dreams I worked at Naylor again… it was really weird
Best moment this week: HEARING my sweet little peanuts heartbeat for the first time! It was absolutely amazing and the most beautiful sound I have ever heard
Miss Anything? Margaritas, I REALLY wanted one the other day
Movement: I truly believe this child is performing trapeze acts in my stomach, but I am probably just finding a crazy reason for all the stomach craziness! 🙂  
Food cravings: Pickles with hot sauce and tomato soup and grilled cheese have been my two big cravings this week. 
Anything making you queasy or sick: some food or drink smells are, but luckily getting a little better every day! 
Labor Signs: This one should say no for a while! 
Symptoms: Still a little tired, but luckily getting back into my workout routine in the afternoons with Michael, mostly feeling the symptoms that were in the early scenes of what to expect… you know the crazy preggers! 😉 
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? ON!
Happy or Moody most of the time:SOOOOOO HAPPY!!!! I will occasionally get the happy cries, like when I am watching the Carters commercial about becoming a mom.. yeah that one gets me, or even just happy cries about being preggers, but yeah overall just ecstatic! 
Looking forward to: Having fun shopping for little one! That part really gets me excited! 

9 WEEKS!!!!

How far along? 9 weeks!
Total weight gain: 4 pounds! Trying to eat anything I can since none of it wants to stay for too long!
Maternity clothes? Just a belly band, a couple of shirts and some leggings, this little one is pooching a tiny bit already
Stretch marks?Not yet!!!
Sleep: With the help of Unisom.. Thank you Jennifer! But I am having some weird dreams
Best moment this week: Reading about what is going on in my tummy and having just a moment of standing in awe of my Savior!! After so many years of hearing you cannot, I started crying today thinking about the little one growing in my belly!
Miss Anything? RED MEAT!!!! Hearing no steaks unless well-done, which is nasty anyway, just killed me! 
Movement: Not yet!
Food cravings: Grapes, frozen grapes especially and gatorade!
Anything making you queasy or sick: the morning!!! haha and then occasionally a smell will hit me that makes me feel sick, but its usually throughout the day
Gender Prediction: Michael says boy and I say girl! He wants jerseys and a little pitcher, and I want a tutus and big bows! Either way I just want a happy healthy baby!
Labor Signs: Nope, and I would hope not! 
Symptoms: TIRED ALL THE TIME! This child is draining me! I dont feel like I have ever slept this much, then there is also the morning sickness and the serious heightened sense of taste and smells lately… good grief nothing tastes the same! haha but I LOVE IT
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? ON!
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!!! So amazingly grateful, blessed and I think still shocked!
Looking forward to: The end of my first trimester when supposedly I will start to feel better and less tired all the time. I also can’t wait to find out the sex!
We are so grateful for all of the prayers, support and love! I cannot believe I am going to be a mommy and am still in awe of what is happening! I could have never expected something like this to happen so soon, but honestly there will never come a time I will look back and wish I had more time with my husband, because what is happening is a complete miracle beyond words and I am so grateful to be able to say I can carry a child when it should not be happening. Michael and I cannot believe the wonderful blessings God had continuously showered on us. I have a wonderful husband who takes care of me so much and loves me through the sickness and the excitement! June 3, 2013 cannot come fast enough so we can meet our little one, but we are loving this time we have right now and enjoying what is taking place! 

Him + Me = Three

As I write this, I am so overwhelmed with a mixture of joy and just grace, tons and tons of grace! God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams over the past 2 years. He spent a year of it truly shaping and molding my heart to just lay all of my cares, emotions and hope in Him, preparing me to meet the love of my life and man who would become my husband when he picked me up on July 2, 2011. Less than a year after meeting Michael, I was so humbled and blessed to become his wife. After 4 months of marriage and the amazing, crazy roller-coaster it has been, we have been so blessed to hit such a beautiful moment of me saying this, WE ARE HAVING A BABY!
Before I can get to the amazingness, I really have to give God so many thanks. As many of you many know, and some of you don’t, I have been told for over 2 years now that I will not be able to have children. 2.5 years ago, as I felt so much crashing around me, I had 7 ovarian cysts rupture, ripping to shreds my reproductive system, along with those cysts I would come to be diagnosed with pelvic inflammatory disease, dysplasia and endometriosis, 3 out of 4 things that cause an ectopic pregnancy, lucky me I don’t smoke so I didn’t have the fourth. I truly felt my world crashing down, the desire of my heart for years was to be a wife and a mother, and while yes I know adoption is a wonderful option, I had such a burning desire to be able to have a child of my own as well. I spun absolutely out of control with emotions, blaming so many things, from God to myself, I wasn’t sure where to begin on that long list, and luckily I serve a wonderful God who hears my anger, but also hears my repentance in blaming Him for the situation I was in, little did I know it would shape me into such a woman of faith, more than He had ever done. For the past 2.5 years, I have been so blessed to have Phil and Kay Courson along with Mike and Cindy Gilland, pastors and their wives at Abundant Grace Community Church, lay hands on me and pray for me, consistently, as every doctors appointment came and went and the prognosis did not change, as every 3-6 months I was walking into that office just down and out, they prayed and had faith, and I am so grateful for that.
When I met Michael, we got to the point very quickly in our relationship, making sure that we weren’t wasting our time with someone who wasn’t right for us, this included our past and our testimony, the one thing I was most terrified of, but Michael showed me such love and grace when he looked me in the eye and said that’s not who you are that what helped shape the woman of God I see, with that we hit the ground running, but as we became more serious then the fear of telling him I cannot have children entered my mind, but just like the previous response, that did nothing to his love that he had for me. As we came closer and closer to our wedding day, I was so excited but at the same time, scared because I knew that he still wanted to try and have kids, but I knew also my prognosis, its not possible with what has happened to me. Well God has such a sense of humor in that 2 weeks before the wedding, I went to the doctor and all of the scaring and overall damage that was done could not be seen, but while things may look better, that didn’t mean they were and we continued with the thoughts of not having our own children, even though we would attempt, but knowing adoption was always there as the years went on.
The week of our wedding, Michael became extremely sick, and being the loving man he is, shared, and on our honeymoon I was on antibiotics and became pregnant, a crazy miracle in itself, but did not know it.  I took a number of pregnancy tests and all were negative, so after a shooting pain at work, went into my doctor and found out we had a baby, but if was caught within the fallopian tube and needed to have it removed before it ruptured, I could do nothing but sob on the table in my doctors office, wondering why after 2.5 years of hearing no to children, I would find out that I have to lose this one or lose my life, it seemed like a cruel joke, but it was something God would use to minister to me through so many women in my church along with a wonderful husband who would care for me so faithfully and push me to give my emotions to my Savior and trust Him.
Now with an ectopic, I was more likely to have another and still was having major complications and decided it would be best if we left well enough alone, for my own emotions and sanity. So weeks went on and the trials/blessing came, the blessing being Michael receiving a wonderful job in Tallahassee, the trial being Tallahassee, me leaving a job I adored, my family, his family and our church family, it seemed like so much. The week we were moving, I felt so sick, I could not eat or sleep well, I asked Michael if it was maybe my cooking and he said he had felt fine, so I pulled out the pregnancy test I dreaded so much taking it knowing there was no way because we never saw the lines even with the ectopic, but before I knew it, there they were, two pink lines telling me I am going to be a mommy. Shock, awe and absolute emotion took over, I was terrified. We made the appointment with the doctor for an ultrasound and went in, they could not find the baby and my worst fear took over, another ectopic. As they searched through the fallopian tubes and ovaries still nothing, so they ran blood work the weekend we were moving. The only thing on my mind that weekend was please God just let it be negative so I don’t have to deal with loss, even though I never expressed those emotions to my husband. I couldn’t fathom being told I am pregnant, when all I have ever heard was you cant conceive.
That Saturday night, in Tallahassee while sitting at dinner, we got the call, my doctor was so excited she didn’t want the on call physician to call me, she needed to. She said my blood levels in the HCG test had not just doubled, but tripled and I was definitely pregnant, being the wonderful woman of God that she is, she followed that up with a sentence that will stick with me forever, “this child is an absolute miracle”, she knew what I had been through and no words summed in up better.
Two weeks ago, laying back on that table that I dreaded, I waited and prayed for good news as the technician came in, and within seconds of starting the ultrasound, there it was, our little tadpole and its heartbeat. We were seeing our babies heartbeat. The emotion that overtook me was so great, God had to let me release so much to receive the joy that was seeing my babies heartbeat!  So now, we are planning for Baby Ross #1 of what I am having so much faith is 1 of many more to come! With every ounce of morning sickness and absolute food aversion comes also joy and gratitude to a Savior who once again in a time of just laying this down at His feet, He gave us the desire of our hearts, along with some growth and trust in Him. 
I am so blessed to say that I AM GOING TO BE A MOMMY!!!! And I only hope I can be half the parent mine were to me and lead my daughter/son to be followers of a wonderful Savior, knowing everyday that they are living proof of His love for them to give them life and give me the ability to carry this precious life for 9 joyous months!